'Twas the night before surgery...

...and all through my brain, not a rational thought was stirring, not even "IT'S FOR YOUR HEALTH, STUPID!!"

I'm kinda freaking out.

My main three fears:

1) getting sick all the time like I was with my band.

2) surgical complications like a leak

3) needing to be out of work for more than a week/being completely unable to work next week (I took off 6 days) - especially since I've got a very high-stress job and I'm in the surgical closet.

Please God, I want to be NORMAL. I want to eat normal food like a normal human in normal portion sizes feeling normally FULL (whatever that feels like) and wear normal clothes and live an extraordinary life.

BTW, I'm fricking STARVING.