New jeans

I've been needing new jeans desperately. My size 26 Avenue denim lite stretch bootcuts have been falling off of me.

Last week, I tried a 24 at Lane Giant. No go - not very stretchy and very thick denim - besides, they didn't fit. Too small.

A few days ago, while at home, my mom and I went to Avenue. Well, I went to Avenue and dragged my mom along. I tried 24s.. they fit! Then the salesgirl said that these are very stretchy and if I could, try a 22. Shah, riiight!

They FIT! Well, blow me down! I could not believe it! They fit in the waist (even had a little room!) and were about as stretchy as the other ones I had been wearing. They were much more fitted than I am used to.. but that reminds me of something I discuss in therapy as it relates to my band (and now my clothing): Sometimes, what feels too tight is actually just right.

Weekly weigh-in

A little late this week.. Merry Christmas! 314.4.. I had pie and now weigh pi.. ha! Lost weight over the holidays. I'll take it!

Turns out, I'm terrible at math. No surprise there. I thought I was closing in on -80lbs but it's actually -70lbs. Cause I can subtract. Really, really well.

Anyway, I'm officially -70.6lbs! Wooooooot!

Weekly weigh-in

315.6!! I lost two pounds this week.. a crazy week - finals, car trouble, snowed in, the works. Two pounds! WOOT WOOT!

This means that I'm only 0.6lbs away from EIGHTY POUNDS LOST!! That's about fifty pounds more than I've ever been able to lose pre-band.

I'm a happy camper today.

Weekly weigh-in

317.6.... a loss of 2 pounds this week. Allllright.

not working..

I'm unemployed! By choice. But it's finals week. Lots of junk in the house, but I'm okay. Yes, I bought Coke. A 12-pack. Or three. So far, I've only had 1 a day.

Saw this on another blog and figured I'd do it. Hey, any way to pass the time by not studying!

Last Movie I Saw In A Movie Theater? Twilight: New Moon
What Book Are You Reading? Anita Shreve's A Wedding in December (sloooooow going)
Favorite Board Game? Sorry!
Favorite Magazine? Glamour
Favorite Smells? Movie popcorn, clean linen candles, Polo cologne, new books
Favorite Sounds? Tennis ball smashes, walking on gravel, piano keys tinkling
Worst Feeling In The World? Being unprepared (Amazing for a procrastinator like me, I know)
First Thing You Think of When You Wake? Is it Saturday? Can I sleep in?
Favorite Fast Food Place? Junky fast food: Taco Bell. “Higher-end” fast food: Saladworks ($10 for a salad?!)
Future Child’s Name? I have a few picked out. For a girl: Avery, Maggie, Molly.. For a boy: Andrew, Luke
Finish This Statement—“If I Had a Lot of Money,” I'd pay off my student loans, my mom's mortgage, buy a Range Rover, and buy a couple of beachfront properties for my family. And do small claims work.
Do You Drive Fast? I rarely go above 80-85 on the highway.
Do You Sleep With a Stuffed Animal? No.. but I think I'd like to!
Storms—cool or scary? Both. Scary if I'm alone and it's dark out and the power goes out.
What Was Your First Car? A buick. So not cool.
Favorite Drink? French martini - vodka, chambord, pineapple juice
Finish This Statement—“If I Had the Time, I Would…” Scrapbook, knit, list a TON of stuff on eBay
Do You Eat the Stems on Broccoli? Nah.
If You could Dye your Hair Any Other Color, What Would It Be? Platinum blonde or vibrant red. Who am I kidding, I want my current hair color with a chunky purple stripe. Seriously.
Favorite Sport to Watch? I hate watching sports. HATE.
What’s Under Your Bed? I have a bunch of flattened boxes under there right now. Waiting to pack and move.
Would You Like to Be Born As Yourself Again? Yes..
Morning Person or Night Owl? Definitely not a morning person..
Over Easy or Sunny Side Up? Over-medium, please. Not too firm, not too runny.
Favorite Place to Relax? The corner of my L-shaped couch.
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor? Chocolate or choco-mint chip

Weekly weigh-in and a new chapter

So this morning I weighed in at 319.6. My lowest to date! Slow but sure. It's nice to see when I'm not trying - I'm not counting calories and I certainly haven't been exercising.

But that's about to change.

This past week I ended my job as a paralegal. It was time - I didn't want to be an attorney there and I need time off to study for my finals, and in a few weeks, the bar exams. So this week was my last week of full-time employment. I'm very numb. I didn't get much of a send-off, but it was more emotional for me than I expected. It's ending a huge chapter in my life. I'm also finding myself having fleeting panic attacks and "what did I just do?!" moments. After asking myself whether I did the right thing in quitting (money! health insurance! security! eek!), I remind myself of the hell that firm has put me through. The humiliation. The belittling. The public sarcasm. I can't imagine being there much longer and not turning into a giant asshole. So, yes, I did the right thing. I hate this state and can't wait to get out.

So now I have final exams. My last law school classes (EVER!) were this week. I had a lot to drink this week, needless to say. I have three finals (one class already ended) and they're all next week. I have a lot of work to do. But it's nice to know that my time is now 100% my own, and should I be ready to walk on my treadmill for a few minutes, I'll actually have those minutes to give it a go.